I came to the camp with an open mind, or at least I thought.
Ready to see God in ways I have heard, but have never seen. As I began to learn more about the importance of worship and the power of prayer I felt strong in The Lord and true connection with the Holy Spirit like never before. This made me believe I had it all together, finally i feel the Holy Spirit move through me like so many others told me about.
But as the days went by and we began focusing on praying over others, my confidence instantly evaporated.
You hear all these other students and leaders pray over big groups and in front of everyone and I start to feel my prayers can't compare and lack substance. The enemy started to get in head, telling me over and over how stupid I sound and how I'm not knowledgeable of the word of God.
In that moment I realized I really didn't have an open mind and I was holding on to the fear of being rejected and the thought of not being good enough. Then God spoke to me and told to have patience,
"But let patience have It's perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing." James 1:4
It all takes time and an open ear to God. I must have faith that God can speak through me and know that my words hold POWER and I CAN speak life over someone and be apart of bringing them out of any dark place they may be in.
And as each day passes I will grow stronger in Him!!
